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Nightmare
02:57
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2. |
Road Crew
03:33
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I look like sunshine if I
can help it noone needs to know
A little sugar tonight
Rock bottom nowhere left to go
My hair is ten per cent grease
I'm leaving blood on the walls
I think I'll shorten my lease
Got somewhere special to fall
This is how to make it look
real real real
This is how to make it look
real real real
Pretend this is how it looks
real real real
I don't need to understand
real real real
We are the road crew
We are the band
We are the guiding force that's
taking your hand
We are the sickness
We are the cure
We are the image
That you don't trust anymore
The way that I like to think
I ought to call it fantasy
If I couraegously drink
Then I can fake reality
Red carpets framed pictured disk
Cut ribbons with a wedding ring
Never have an affair
why would I ever wanna cheat
This is how to make it look (more vigourously than last time)
real real real
This is how to make it look
real real real
Pretend this is how it looks
real real real
I don't need to understand
real real real
We are the lie
We are the lie
We are the lie
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Bedsheets IV: Whispers
05:22
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This is something else
This is something disturbing to you
This is something unreasonable
This is something vain and untrue
King of all I wasted away
King of being king yesterday
King of saying what I wanna say
King of having it all my way
and I don't like you anymore
I don't like this anymore
You don't wanna to whisper to me
Settle now for whispering around me
We are alright we're ready
I am alright I'm ready
King of all I wasted away
King of my dominion and king I'll fucking stay
King of everything put my way
You know you can trust me, talk to me honey
My bedsheets keep me cold
they never worked at all
my monsters still haunt me
Bedsheets I trusted you
but what more can I do
my monsters still haunt me
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Hands
03:01
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Fading cases don't stay I know I've never been
Breaking all of my bones, tell me that you don't know
And you call me like you know me
I guess I've been something less lonely
But you call me and you don't know me
Don't keep your hands to yourself
Don't keep your hands to yourself
I been leaking and oozing and spewing and
Nothing is private no more no more
I've been breaking and sweating and aching
and nothing is public like we were
And you hold him like you know him
I guess I've been a constant reminder
that you loathe what you couldn't hold on
and when I see you with him the little voice my head it says
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Peace And Quiet
02:44
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Wouldn't it be nice
If all I wanted was peace and quiet
but I want peace and I want quiet and I want war to go beside it
Oh Wouldn't it be nice
Breaking down and feeling better than ever
Cus i've got super glue keeping me together
and if a piece falls off well that's just fine
I'm sure I'll find it again sometime
Welcome to the chaos in my mind
I left my diary opened and open ended
cause i wasn't even sure if I could tell I was pretending
to not feel anything maybe that is why I sing
to mean anything to any of those people I unfriended
Does it count as bottling it up if I never talk about it
but I'm always writing songs that make it so obvious
Recognition might be all I want in the end
but you said you like my songs so, say it again, say it again, say it again
I am on fire, but I am so numb
I cannot stop talking, till it renders me dumb
And I am part of something, but I don't know where I'm from
And I wanna be with you, but we are not one
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IHTW
04:15
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I wish that I didn't keep coming back here but I
Feel a pull and I can't quite fight it
It's like I'm telling myself to walk into an open flame and I
Kind of want to try it
We don't walk away and we don't get to run
Throw caution to the wind before everything is done
We don't get a second chance, we don't forgive or forget
But if you're game then I'm willing to pretend
I hate the world, it made me sick
Rip my diary to bits
My bed of pearls rots to dust
All these colours to turn to rust
I wish that I didn't keep coming back here but I
Wanna pretend that it might be healthy
It's like I'm telling myself to throw everything away
I don't want to go, but I don't want to stay
We don't walk away and we don't get to run
You get too used to the moon and you don't want to feel the sun
We don't give a second chance, we don't forgive or forget
Letting go is something else but I can't speak to that
I hate the world, it made me sick
It seeps under the fabric
Of who we are, get so far
Burn in blazes, short-lived stars
And we're always awake, we're always awake
We're not all the same, but we're always the same way
I hate the world, it made me sick
All these good things turn to shit
I never learn, why start now?
I always bounce back somehow
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Today (Album Version)
04:01
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I'm in a loop
feels like I just woke up all the time
The minute hand just passes by
I'm in a rut
Feels like my bedsheets are stuck
It feels wrong
The hour hand just marches on
It's so unfortunate I wish that I could pretend to care
About what you had to say
Guess that I'll just get nothing done today
Just write off today
I know you needed me to be not stuck in all this apathy but honestly just leave me be
I wanna just get nothing done today
Just write off today
I'm in a mood, I'm in that way
I'm keeping my eyes closed you'll wanna stay away from me
Today I wanna just let my brain atrophy
I know you want the best of me
I can't give that to you today so just trust me
For a little bit, this is just how it has to be
I'm going out of my mind
Feels like I'm losing my mind
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9. |
August
02:39
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I set you off, I can sort of hear you
crackle like a fire cracker, off in the distance somewhere
in the air, theres a girl who look a lot like you
Being happy in her daydream
How you doing lately
I think I could surprise you
If I told you that I'm still
trying work you into my thrills
It'd be so depressing if it wasn't so real
I love to walk the line between
absurd and well defined
I think you left my last message on read
some time back in early august
I filter everything good, then I mix it back in
It tastes so rich, when you time it just right
I've been at it all night, and I'm starting to
picture how I'd time it just right with you
I love to walk the line between
absurd and well defined
I think you have to understand that this
is absurd time to call it quits
I love to walk the line between
I'm lonely and I'm fine
I think you left my last message on read
is there something that I'm not getting right
tonight
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10. |
Feel
02:49
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I'm tired of falling
It's been a while, It's been a while now, and I don't think I'm
stopping, anytime soon
I'm tired of wanting
wanting more, wanting less, wanting rid of it
rid of it all
Who knows if you'll care
who knows if you'll see
but I think that there's something that's broken in me
I sit and I wait just to check if its real
Maybe if I never decide, I'll forget how to feel
My head says its one thing my doctor says different
My boss wants to know if I'll ever be back in
I'm trying believe me I'm doing my bestest not
Christian but I hope for divine intervention
This is a pain in the neck
my hands will not do what they're told
My vision is wrinkled and old
I wanna look up my symptoms but I can't remember what they're called
I doubt if you'll care
I doubt if you'll see
but I think that there's something that's broken in me
I sit and I wait just to check if its real
Maybe if I never decide, I'll forget how to feel
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11. |
The Moment
03:26
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I think I'm pretty good at self reflection
cus I can recognise the problem
But that's not enough to make it stick
Even if everybody says that's the first step
I think I'm pretty good at being honest
if you force me
but wouldn't that be rude
Is that really what a friend would do
I'm a special kind of train wreck
Cus I don't wanna fix the track
I got rid of that sensible voice in the back of my head
And I don't ever want it back
(it used to say)
Just get through the moment
Then get through the day
Then get through tomorrow
Smiling all the way
They'll say that you're happy
That you're full of laughs
Just get through the moment
and smile if you can
You get tired of hearing
That it gets better, if you just try
Cus sometimes it doesn't
Yeah sometimes that's a lie
You get tired of hearing
That it'll all be alright
Cus sometimes it isn't
Sometimes they lie
I'm a special kind of train wreck
Cus I don't wanna fix the track
I got rid of that sensible voice in the back of my head
And I don't ever want it back
(it used to say)
It feels like you get blisters
Taking two steps forward and one step back
So you do it on tiptoes
And you get nowhere fast
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Watch As Time Runs Out
03:17
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Loser like a playground, hang your head a minute or
Get yourself lost in the weeds
Pawn, Queen, Horse, Rook, take a look at what it took
To pretend you had any idea
What you were doing by yourself
No you're no good at this game
You can look me in the eye and say you got it handled this time
But we both know you're gonna play the same
And it'll hurt like it never has before, like it never has before
like it never has before
Pitied broken champion could change your strategy
'cause what you're doing right now is just sapping energy
Sit and fear and break some bones with words and empathy
And tell yourself ain't it a shame that nothing works for me
But this time it feels so special, this time she feels so angel
She don't even know you're playing, you don't know just what you're saying
Burn yourself so non-commital hope it just works out
Sit there twiddling your thumbs and watch as time runs out
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Melted
02:13
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14. |
Natural
05:36
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I'm not even sure if I like you
but you keep ending up in my room
its a thought and its a person
but I don't know what I'd do
You smell of something that I want
but you reek of it afterwards
And you tell me it doesn't hurt
until it does
and I know I know that you're lying to me
but I'm just numb enough not to care
If I maintain this feeling for just long enough
I can just get myself to despair
And the lies that we tell to ourselves
start to stack in the hall where I left my conviction
watch your step or you'll fall
Right into my bed, forget what I said
Doesn't it feel so natural
I'm not sure if I like you, but I
almost wish that I did, just enough to abuse you
just enough, to use you
cus god I could use, using someone like you
I envy having it in you not to feel
I envy having it in you to break someone
to feel broken to move it on
like a virus you got from your carnal lust
and I know I know that you're lying to me
but I'm just numb enough not to care
If I maintain this feeling for just long enough
I can just get myself to despair
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15. |
Blue
01:51
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You're at your best when you are blue
And saying that feels like a silly stupid
thing to do, I'm evil it's true
I hate to see you cry
but I love to be the one that makes you
smile, so stay here a while
I wish I could say that when I chase the
blues away, it's not selfish or moreish or cruel
but you're at your best when you are blue
cus that's when it helps to hear that I love you
I'm a sucker for a laugh
and sometimes its nice to guide you on the path
so you see its not so bad
I don't ever want you in pain
but I relish being the one to bring
change, so baby you should stay
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